Last Sunday night, I boggled my life with another decision that I should have made weeks ago. In the course of finding what I want to do, one of the many things that popped into my mind was designing sets for stage plays or musicals. I want making big things, literally. I have always been a visual person and I love sets because I think they look majestic.
Scenography is not offered in my country but the basics of interior design can help me on my way there. I asked my theater workshop teacher and theater manager about set design the night before enrolling. They both said that ID will be a good start and I should be an intern for one of the scenographers in the country so I could have a good taste and experience of it all.
PSID, Raffles, and SoFA-ID are my choices for interior design. Raffles is okay but I personally find it too expensive. PSID has a very light schedule but it is so far away. SoFA-ID offers workshops but they coincide with the class I am very much unwilling to let go.
It's funny how I just saw SoFA-ID's updated website when I had to enroll the day after in PSID. SoFA-ID seemed like a good bargain since I will get the taste of what I am looking for in 4 months but, as I said, the schedule coincided with the only days my teacher in CEP-M is available. I was disheartened and I thought of it as a sign to not take it.
My heart was bursting with confusion around midnight and I asked for a sign in my dream if going to PSID, the only available choice, is the correct path. I did not get any because my body was so busy with itself. I woke up to the feeling like I did not sleep. It felt like I jagged down coffee! I was so nervous as if I had to sing or deliver a speech in front of thousands of people.
After much deliberation in my head, I just went for it. I enrolled in PSID less than an hour before the first class. I sat beside a physician who studied in UST and I sat behind a UST Med student who took a leave of absence. At that moment, I felt bizarre. We all had UST Med experiences. To top it off, our professor for that day also took up medicine. I just don't know what happened.
The "take things one step at a time" homily a few months ago felt like it is for ID then Scenography. The incidence of sitting near Med people. The incidence of SoFA-ID not being available because of voice. The incidence of voice. The incidence of liking and being in theater to have advice from the people from it. The incidence of wanting to teach instead and take up film.
A lot of coincidences and weird timings. I am not sure if the universe is messing with me or it is trying to say something. I am still in the process of slowly embracing ID. I still want to do other things. I still want to be great in other things. I have to learn to let go. I have to learn not to rush things. I have to learn to be a people person. There are a lot of things to learn and experience. Right now, I am just overwhelmed of it all.
I need guidance and strength.
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