I had a "For real, Ate Uge?!" moment this afternoon.
As my teacher and I were discussing about our schedules, she asked that maybe, if we could, we could join the Christmas recital this December. The conditions though are her presence (she will be gone on the 2nd week of Dec. since the chorale she coaches will compete in Vietnam that week) and my ability (or maybe confidence and willingness to join). The message was a tad short notice but it's okay.
I mentioned in my previous post that I have a lot to learn and master. However, my teacher added too that the usual CEP-M members that join the Christmas recitals are the best in their fields/students of each teacher. It's just either she has a lot of students that aren't super good yet or I'm just being a perfectionist again. Whatever reason, for a while there, I smiled deep inside. I didn't let it go to my head though since I know how I really fare and how it will be like in the recital. We'll be studying new pieces of Christmas songs for this, if ever.
I might have missed jazz today due to back pains, but this comment made my day and made me feel like I've done enough art for the day. Thank You, God. I really hope I can master my techniques more.
Wednesday, November 21, 2012
Nails!
I made a post about how I love my nails yesterday but the post got lost. Anyway, below is the picture of my current nail polish. Que arte. It's called Socialite. I had my nails done in Dashing Diva. I love that nail place. It's comfy. They sanitize and sterilize their tools. The service is good!
The GB branch still fares on top of everyone though :)
The GB branch still fares on top of everyone though :)
Monday, November 19, 2012
Show of Skill Blues
Last weekend was the registration for the West End revival run of my most favorite musical in this ten billion light year universe! I knew about the auditions a month ago but I am not "ripe" enough to audition for it yet. I have a lot of techniques to master and I need a lot of practice. Yes, I am a little heartbroken. Well, at least, I would not make a fool out of myself if ever I mess things up.
Next week is the open auditions of one of my favorite theater companies in the country! They will show Addams Family next year! My heart is soaring. I love Wednesday! But again, I am not ready for it yet nor do I think that I will be by next week. Or not. This feeling sucks really.
As I remember my horoscope (yes, I read horoscopes once in a while), an opportunity in November will keep me preoccupied until 2015. This opportunity is very vague! I know I might as well take everything and see for myself. If things go by smoothly this week, I might go and try. I know the horoscope is "true" for all Geminis, but hey, I am a Gemini and we might be all in this together? Wishful thinking. November will end in a few weeks and I better grab this chance, right? I wonder why only until 2015! Hahaha. My graduation in PSID will be in November 2015, but the school opportunity came in September. Look at me, totally believing in horoscopes. Eeep!
Anyway, as I said, if things go well this week, I will audition for Atlantis. I will try to prepare every single day. And yes, not too much as I do not want to be voiceless on the day itself. It will be on a Monday, by the way. And yes, I have 3 more allowable absences in EPD. My heart is so confused and a little crushed right now. Eeep! Hold still.
Whatever happens, I will kill it in my voice and jazz class tomorrow. I feel so motivated right now (and hopefully this continues until tomorrow). I'll practice my songs and routine when my brother's tutor leaves. Career time!
Next week is the open auditions of one of my favorite theater companies in the country! They will show Addams Family next year! My heart is soaring. I love Wednesday! But again, I am not ready for it yet nor do I think that I will be by next week. Or not. This feeling sucks really.
As I remember my horoscope (yes, I read horoscopes once in a while), an opportunity in November will keep me preoccupied until 2015. This opportunity is very vague! I know I might as well take everything and see for myself. If things go by smoothly this week, I might go and try. I know the horoscope is "true" for all Geminis, but hey, I am a Gemini and we might be all in this together? Wishful thinking. November will end in a few weeks and I better grab this chance, right? I wonder why only until 2015! Hahaha. My graduation in PSID will be in November 2015, but the school opportunity came in September. Look at me, totally believing in horoscopes. Eeep!
Anyway, as I said, if things go well this week, I will audition for Atlantis. I will try to prepare every single day. And yes, not too much as I do not want to be voiceless on the day itself. It will be on a Monday, by the way. And yes, I have 3 more allowable absences in EPD. My heart is so confused and a little crushed right now. Eeep! Hold still.
Whatever happens, I will kill it in my voice and jazz class tomorrow. I feel so motivated right now (and hopefully this continues until tomorrow). I'll practice my songs and routine when my brother's tutor leaves. Career time!
Saturday, November 17, 2012
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Myusik
It's almost 4 months now since I enrolled in SSC CEP-M. Though I have not improved by a mile, I guess I am slowly on my way there. I am learning a lot of techniques that I do not understand in just reading articles. I still find it great that we nitpick every note and every technique every step of the way.
I just wish I'd have the guts to sing outside 419! The insecure feeling is hardwired in my head and I guess it's part of what holds me back every time. I better get over this so I can practice at anytime other than late at night or when no one's home. Muscle memory needs to kick in!
Anyway, I promise to try my best every time. "I'm doing this for love." Thank goodness my teacher is really nice and awesome!
I just wish I'd have the guts to sing outside 419! The insecure feeling is hardwired in my head and I guess it's part of what holds me back every time. I better get over this so I can practice at anytime other than late at night or when no one's home. Muscle memory needs to kick in!
Anyway, I promise to try my best every time. "I'm doing this for love." Thank goodness my teacher is really nice and awesome!
Thursday, November 8, 2012
Soft Set
I posted before that I would have my hair curled. I had and below is how it looked like after the 4/5 hour session. (Sorry for the duck face and fake shades. That's the only picture with my hair looking... nice.)
It has been almost 2 weeks. The curls are getting straight! Must be the crazy micro chemical bond wars in my locks. I do hope that my hair won't be damaged so much. Anyway, Inhve to curl them with my bendy curlers for at least 30 mins in the morning so they look "curled" and not frizzy. Haha!
My hair has got so much volume now and I am slowly trying to accept it. It becomes buhaghag a bit but I think i can manage. I had 10 yrs of straight hair so I guess I just have to slowly accept the change. So far, I am okay with my hair! Better if less frizzy and no curlers sana but it's okay. Somehow.
It has been almost 2 weeks. The curls are getting straight! Must be the crazy micro chemical bond wars in my locks. I do hope that my hair won't be damaged so much. Anyway, Inhve to curl them with my bendy curlers for at least 30 mins in the morning so they look "curled" and not frizzy. Haha!
My hair has got so much volume now and I am slowly trying to accept it. It becomes buhaghag a bit but I think i can manage. I had 10 yrs of straight hair so I guess I just have to slowly accept the change. So far, I am okay with my hair! Better if less frizzy and no curlers sana but it's okay. Somehow.
No Direction
One of the reasons why I enrolled last term in ID is because I want to be able to say something with weight when asked how I am now after Med. I see it as a safety floater as I float in the uncertainty of my life. It makes me not feel less of a person as compared to when I am doing "nothing".
I originally wanted to balance work with ID or whatever else with ID. So far, however, I have only been focused on that and my other extra curricular activities. The main goal was put aside, yet again. Not only that, after almost 2 months here, I have a feeling that I am doing the same mistake again.
I like my classes. They can be easy, challenging, or make me want to have a hand massage everyday. The classes are okay but when I look at the bigger picture, there I go again. What will become of me after this? Do I really want ID? Why did I not just push through with Set Design immediately?
One of the things that I least like about the classes is dressing up the furniture. Not liking that part of the program is a scary signal that I am not for it. I always feel stressed in coming up with a design. We never hired an interior designer for our houses so I guess venturing in these waters is pretty different for me.
I want to design sets, not houses, not hotels, etc. But the career for a production designer is not as big as an ID. What am I going to do.
I want thinking/strategy jobs. It makes me feel more relevant and smart.
I want to teach science but I do not want to take up MA.
I need to think of a business that will click.
I want to make movies.
I need to extend my network.
ID was never an option until I knew a school with a flexible schedule and learned that it can help with scenic design.
All these frustrated thoughts creep up on me once in a while. If the world will end soon, I guess it will give me lesser problems, but where's the fun in that? I feel so stuck. I feel like I don't know if I am in the right path. Gaaah. How do all those people do it?!
I originally wanted to balance work with ID or whatever else with ID. So far, however, I have only been focused on that and my other extra curricular activities. The main goal was put aside, yet again. Not only that, after almost 2 months here, I have a feeling that I am doing the same mistake again.
I like my classes. They can be easy, challenging, or make me want to have a hand massage everyday. The classes are okay but when I look at the bigger picture, there I go again. What will become of me after this? Do I really want ID? Why did I not just push through with Set Design immediately?
One of the things that I least like about the classes is dressing up the furniture. Not liking that part of the program is a scary signal that I am not for it. I always feel stressed in coming up with a design. We never hired an interior designer for our houses so I guess venturing in these waters is pretty different for me.
I want to design sets, not houses, not hotels, etc. But the career for a production designer is not as big as an ID. What am I going to do.
I want thinking/strategy jobs. It makes me feel more relevant and smart.
I want to teach science but I do not want to take up MA.
I need to think of a business that will click.
I want to make movies.
I need to extend my network.
ID was never an option until I knew a school with a flexible schedule and learned that it can help with scenic design.
All these frustrated thoughts creep up on me once in a while. If the world will end soon, I guess it will give me lesser problems, but where's the fun in that? I feel so stuck. I feel like I don't know if I am in the right path. Gaaah. How do all those people do it?!
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